So, I started this blog about nine months ago. I started writing because I wanted to cover a wide range of topics related to ADD/ADHD, but largely, also, because I was inspired by Gabor Mate's book, Scattered (or Scattered Minds, depending on whether you buy the US or Canadian version). You can read my initial post about it here.
So how's it working out for me?
First and foremost...I feel better about myself. I've been taking the time to dissect my life experiences, especially my formative, childhood impressions and see how it's affected my sense of myself, my most deep-seated anxieties. I'm beginning to feel my ADHD as those anxieties, not just as some random tweaky brain I can't figure out or control.
It's not a fast process. I mean, the emotional progress can come in leaps and bounds, but how it actually informs my ADHD is something that only changes gradually. Today, I'm feeling like something big has happened in that arena: some last shell of a major anxiety construction of my own fell away and I have this...I don't know, this strength from somewhere that allows me to push through. A confidence to self-actualize. I'm guessing this is what the executive function feels like.
I'm still trying to decide how much of my personal stuff I really want to post here...bear with me while I decide, and I apologize if this post is a bit vague. I want to do what's most helpful to my readers, not use this as a personal therapy blog.
